**Shorti**'s JournalSaturday, April 13, 20024:04PMWell yesterday was kinda interesting...well ok not really, I went to the doctors in the morning, I still don't know whats wrong with me, but for the most part I'm feeling a lot better. Yesterday was my daddy's bday so I called home to talk to him but he was sleeping so I talked to my mom for a bit....grrr she makes me soooo mad! I'm coming home next week for my bday and she asked if that was still the plan and she wanted to know who I was bringing home...I told her Dan and Sara...and she was like ugh where does Dan plan on staying? That makes me so mad! He's coming to Buffalo where he knows only me and she doesn't even expect him to sleep at home...where am I gonna tell him to sleep the fucking front lawn?!? She met him once, and I really don't see what she didn't like about him and why she has to be a complete bitch all the time...and she wonders why I dislike her so much. Gah! Well theres nothing going on here right now, I'm soo bored...I need to find something to do... Thursday, April 11, 20027:32PMHey everyone....well It's soooo beautiful here today, it's still like 77 here and it rocks it's soo nice, the sun is shining and MTV is here for campus invasion...it's a good time. Too bad I still feel horrible so I didn't really get much of a chance to enjoy it. I went and sat on the oval for a while with the Carrie's, Andrea and Rachel but I felt really bad so I left to come back to the dorms and lay back down for a while. There's a free concert going on now but I didn't have the energy to go to that either but eh oh-well. Blood work tomorrow morning so hopefully soon after I'll know why I've been so sick. Saturday, April 6, 20021:22PMHey guys...UGH!!! I feel soooo sick still, I went to the doctors yesterday and they didn't do anything for me except give me another doctors appt. next Friday, I have to go get blood work done so that maybe they can figure out whats wrong with me. It's not fun feeling like this all I do is sleep like 16 hrs a day, then I get up and have no energy to do anything, and I'm constantly nauseous and throwing up...hopefully next week I'll know whats wrong so I can go back to living a normal life...Last nite was boring nothing interesting happened here and I ended up going to bed at 12 bc I felt so bad...well I'm going for now bub bye... Tuesday, April 2, 20024:05PMHey everyone, well my final quarter as a frosh has started...*relieved* Spring break was aight, I didn't do much, I was kinda sick for most of it...Dan ended up coming up on Thursday and then came home with me on Sunday. It was nice to see him... Wednesday, March 27, 20021:59AMHey...well the past couple days have been aight...pretty interesting actually, I've been spending a lot of time with Derek and Kristi. I missed talking to Derek, in HS he was a pretty good friend of mine, Im glad that were becoming close again. Kristi is kool too, I really like hanging out with them. I've seen JO a lot too, its weird but when Im around him all I think about is how I used to like him soo much and I really dont see why I did anymore, hes really not anything special...oh well thats the past. Thursday and Dan will be here...Im soo happy I cant wait. Oh yeah...I was kinda in a car accident today...haha it was kinda funny, some guy decided to be an ass and slam on his brakes in front of Derek on the Harlem bridge so Derek cut him off and did the same thing, well the guy lost control of his car and slammed into the wall, haha...we got outta there kinda fast bc we didnt wanna get in trouble for it...oh well, I have to get chuggin....buh bye Saturday, March 23, 200212:49PMWell I'm in Buffalo...Woohoo...I miss Columbus though right now, I wanna see Dan...My trip back from home was the most horrible experience ever...especially being in Cleveland, but I made it home ok so I guess thats all that matters. There's a possibility of Dan coming to visit next week. I couldn't stop smiling when he told me that. I went to the mall yesterday for a few hours, no biggie, I only have $14 right now so I can't buy anything. =( Well I'm off for now, talk to ya later... Wednesday, March 20, 20029:16PMHey dudes...I'm soooo bored right now, almost everyone is at home already...stupid soc. final tomorrow making me stay here all late...there are only like 3 girls and 5 other guys left here, I don't really talk to any of the girls either, well Liz but thats all, Sara, Tom, and Justice all went home today, and Dan is at work right now. *lonely* Dan will be here after work but that prolly won't be till like 1030 or 1100. I should be studying right now but I'm not, I could care less right now, If I don't know it now I never will. I'm a spanish major not a soc. so when will I ever need this shit?!? Current mood:  lonelyCurrent music: Tantric~Morning Tuesday, March 19, 20027:38PMAhhhhhhhhhhhh....*Stressed* It's been one long ass week. Monday was my bio final, I got a 76 on it, not tooo bad I guess, I got a B in the class though so thats good. Otherwise not much is going on over here, I've been studying a lot and not going out at all. My weekend was spent in the dorms, the only time I went out was Sat. to a gymnastics meet and that doesn't even count really. I come home in a couple days...Woohoo (*tears* too) I don't wanna leave Dan...I'm gonna miss that boy soo much. It's not going to be right sleeping alone, or having someone to beat up in my room...awww this is going to be a long 10 days w/o him. I want him to come to Buffalo but right now it looks like it's not going to happen. Too much is going on and it looks like he won't have the time to come. Aww sadness...Well I need to get back to studying, I'll see everyone in a few days hopefully...toodles!!! Friday, March 15, 20023:46PM - Happy Ides of March<~~Mrs. Oehlrich would be proud...Hey everyone~ Sunday, March 10, 2002Saturday, March 9, 200211:21PM - Decisions...Hmmm....ok, so last nite Dan went out and I stayed in the dorms for the nite, which is kool, I don't have a problem with that at all. So it's like 2 and I go down the hall to drink with Chris and his friend Zach from Cinci. Zach was kool and all, we talked for a while you know just stupid stuff. So later he tells me hes an artist and he wants to paint me. So me not thinking at all says yes. So he calls me this morning and woke my ass up so I'm not thinking coherently at all, and I tell him it's ok for him to pick me up at 2 so he can paint me. So as I'm lounging around I'm thinking about this and I'm like I can't see any positive outcomes of doing this. I didn't have his # to call him back and tell him I changed my mind so I avoid him when he gets here. He called a few times and knocked on my door, I didn't answer at all bc I didn't know what to tell him. So finally he leaves and I run over to Sara's room, but at the same time Dan's walking into the building...so I leave a message on my puter for him to go to Sara's room fast! So just as he is walking into Sara's room and I tell him to shut the door fast Zach walks by. Boy do I feel like an ass, so I tell him I changed my mind and he leaves and thats that. OK, fine whatever it was my choice and I feel bad about the way I acted but still it woulda made Dan mad and I didn't want that at all. So just now I was walking down the guys side of the hall coming back to my room and Chris stops me to tell me he is dissapointed in me for the decision I made, like it was the worst thing in the world for me to do. GAH! It's my life!! I'm going to do what makes me happy, that would've made me uncomfortable so I chose not to do it...so sue me!!! What should it matter if I blew off this guy when I'll prolly never see him again in my entire life... Friday, March 8, 20021:38AMSo after a month and a half of sleeping in the same bed as Dan we haven't spent the past 3 nites together...I hate this! It's soo lonely. I guess I would be able to deal with it if he would just stop telling me he's going to sleep here bc lately it's not true. I get my hopes up thinking YAY! I'll be able to wake up in the same bed as Dan, but then he decides to go home and this kinda "Ok I was just let down...again" feeling settles over me. That's a bad feeling to have and it really bothers me. Don't make a promise if you won't keep it. Maybe I just need to learn how not to get my hopes up... 1:33AMSo after a month and a half of sleeping in the same bed as Dan we haven't spent the past 3 nites together...I hate this! It's soo lonely. I guess I would be able to deal with it if he would just stop telling me he's going to sleep here bc lately it's not true. I get my hopes up thinking YAY! I'll be able to wake up in the same bed as Dan, but then he decides to go home and this kinda "Ok I was just let down...again" feeling settles over me. That's a bad feeling to have and it really bothers me. Don't make a promise if you won't keep it. Maybe I just need to learn how not to get my hopes up... Wednesday, March 6, 20029:39PMI scheduled today! I got all the classes I want for next quarter too: Excursions in math, human bio, and world history. Not too bad at all. I have Fridays off too...woohoo!! 2 classes I have with Sara so that should be a good time! But that's all for now bc I have to get back to my Soc. project...toodles Sunday, March 3, 200212:05AMGrrr...I really really like Dan but OMG does he PISS me off sometimes! I have no intentions of breaking up with him or not being with him bc that would hurt me and I'm all about making me happy right now but grrrrrr...Last nite he went to the frat house and promised me he would only play one game of pong and not get drunk, but ofcourse when he comes back to my room it's 3:30 and he's trashed. Now he's back at the frat house getting drunk, which is fine, but I hate it when he drinks. Today I was taking a shower too and he just walks into the girls bathroom and opens the shower curtain...that pissed me off too...all he wanted was to borrow something...like it couldn't wait until I got out of the shower or something!!! GAH! Anyways I'm done with the bitching.... Current mood:  pissed offCurrent music: Nsync~It makes me ill Saturday, March 2, 20023:45AM***I've got a lot on my mind so I guess that I'll take it one thing at a time...still sometimes I can't help but wonder why?*** Thursday, February 28, 200211:00PM - Ain't love the sweetest thing?Mmmmmmm....total and complete happiness right now....*smile*...Last nite I went to Alcatraz with Amber and we met a couple guys...they were cute and sweet and all...plus they bought us drinks all nite so that was a plus, but all I could think about was how I wanted to get back home to Dan. The one guy who was hitting on me all nite, Tony, tried to kiss me when they dropped us back off here and I totally ignored it. If I were with any other guy I would've prolly kissed him and not even cared about the fact that I have a bf bc I was drunk, but I didn't kiss him and I had no desire too. It's nice to be so totally and completely happy with one person. Yesterday was one month for Dan and I *YAY* It hasn't felt like a month though, it feels like we've been together forever. We didn't really see each other much yesterday bc he had to work and I went out but it was still a good day. He actually remembered that it was one month too, that was something I didn't expect at all. Hmmmm...well I'm tired so it's off to bed for me...Goodnight! Saturday, February 23, 20021:35PMHey everyone, sorry it's been so long since the last time I updated, but I've been really sick all week with a stupid stomach virus. I finally feel better, and I can actually eat for the first time all week...woohoo...it was a long boring week though...I went to most of my classes just bc I can't miss anymore, a few of them I left early bc I was too sick to stay though. I had 3 midterms this week and that sucked ass big time. I know I failed my Spanish one, it was muy dificil...my Soc one wasn't too bad, I prolly got a B on it, and Bio was rough too...I predict a C for that one again. Last night I felt ok but I just lounged around the dorms and tried to go to bed early but it didn't work bc Dan was up watching movies all night, and of course its 1:45 and he's still sleeping...I'm going shopping in a bit with Sara, Sarah, and Tom. We're just waiting to hear from Tom and see if he's up yet. Well I'm off to finish getting ready.... Wednesday, February 13, 200210:39PMSo I overreacted yesterday, Dan and I are fine...I think...we talked about it yesterday and we decided we still want to be with each other *smile* I really like this guy. He makes me happy...it's hard to think of me w/o him right now. Oh-well...*happiness* Tomorrows Valentines Day and I don't know what I'm doing yet. I'm assuming Dan has something planned but who knows, we didn't talk about it at all...It doesn't even matter right now what happens, I just wanna be able to see him. Anyways back to the Spanish HW that I've been doing for like the past 2 hours... Navigate: (Previous 20 entries) |
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